tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31894777015136268342024-03-14T02:54:08.873-07:00Calmal's Little Black BoxCalmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-61056837408220052722013-01-25T07:24:00.001-08:002013-01-25T07:24:50.260-08:00Free fall<br />
Jumping from a plane<br />
I anticipated my fall<br />
prepared all my need<br />
my parachute and my googles<br />
every time i looked down<br />
my heart seemed to stop<br />
of not knowing<br />
whether<br />
i will live <br />
or not<br />
the time came<br />
I jumped and free fall<br />
without even given<br />
a last thought<br />
moments passed<br />
images of my previous<br />
weakly flashed<br />
Frozen my oesophagus<br />
I could not find the trigger<br />
to release the parachute<br />
though height is getting low<br />
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Taken away in a dream<br />
Empty and full<br />
Blank and colourful<br />
Sad and happy<br />
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Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-89468462982918337342012-10-31T22:36:00.001-07:002012-10-31T22:36:46.751-07:00I pray, you lightsThere you sit,<br />
Eager as a child<br />
in a toy shop,<br />
Wanting to get more. <br />
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There you sit,<br />
Humbly low, looking<br />
forward. I wonder,<br />
what are you thinking?<br />
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I pray,<br />
To have more time in our hands.<br />
I pray,<br />
That i give you everything i can. <br />
I pray,<br />
For me to understand you, and <br />
You to understand this and that.<br />
I pray, you lights<br />
Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-53932861284864567362012-03-11T11:31:00.001-07:002012-03-11T11:31:28.486-07:00That airThis air suffocates me,<br />
It brings me down,<br />
Condemning me,<br />
Makes me bleed. <br />
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Never mind I'll get through this,<br />
Just a little cut,<br />
Painful but I can ignore it,<br />
Never mind. I think I'm strong. <br />
<br />
Never mind. Never mind. <br />
Never mind. Never mind. Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-89842281417782205382012-01-29T21:44:00.001-08:002012-02-02T19:11:39.848-08:00Dream comes trueI been wanting an iPhone since long and the release of iPhone 4s last year really amazed me. <br />
Now I'm a proud owner of it because it wasn't easy for me to own it. As a student, I kept my budget tight for months and did part time job with my best friend. <br />
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Well, it does not matter if our dream is to get iPhone or good grade or important position or good pay or etc, what is more important is our determination and our hardwork in achieving our dreams. Because then we will be a better person who would never give up and strong.<br />
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what i like to do best is dancing (though my dance moves are very amateur...=p). so i start practicing dancing as my routine exercise every day. not only that i do aerobic, i also play step mania. i really have fun!! ^^<br />
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everybody knows what is aerobic. this is my present favourite one so far which i found in youtube:<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.youtube.com/embed/OY7c6kx9UuY?feature=player_embedded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div>the moves are very simple but very catchy...i just go with the song and enjoy it very much... XD<br />
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now, let me explain a bit about step mania. step mania is actually a dancing game where you play using a dance mat. so you need to move your legs according to the arrows in the screen. it is a very fun game with variety of song to be chosen from their online library.<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.youtube.com/embed/SxyZby372ew?feature=player_embedded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div>ok i know the video clip above is a bit too much for a beginner like me...huhu... but not to worry, there are many levels of difficulty. i usually go with novice and easy..huhu...at least i'm sweating..<br />
btw i only use soft foam mat and adapter to connect the mat with my lappy.<br />
this is the link to the page if you wish to download, install and play step mania (it is FREE!! yeay!):<br />
<a href="http://www.stepmania.com/">http://www.stepmania.com/</a><br />
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p.s.: pray that i will continue this exercise routine so that i can say bye bye to my muffin top..ngeee XDCalmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-33168403611272576102012-01-15T19:33:00.000-08:002012-01-15T19:33:43.124-08:00Apple Diethave you ever feel guilty to your stomach that you ate too much and too many of unhealthy foods?<br />
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i heard about detoxification diet years before. the diet programme meant to help remove toxic build up because of us eating variety of foods and junks.<br />
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Mr. google then helped me to find some pages that helps to explain about apple diet. i found out that there are two types of apple diet.<br />
1. eat nothing but only apples for 2 or 3 days.(eat apple every time when you are hungry)<br />
2. eat good and healthy foods and eat an apple before every main meal for 3 days.<br />
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it also said that you can lose weight by doing this diet.<br />
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i tried once but i only managed to go for a day with the first type of apple diet (because of the temptation to eat other foods =p). but i can feel the result the next day... my stomach seems to be more relaxed and i no longer had constipation. so i may stick with this kind of diet (at least to have apple every day) as what they say 'an apple a day keeps the doctor away' huhuhu ^^....<br />
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if you do want to do this apple diet then i recommended that you make some research in the net and see which way of dieting that suits you. there are also other detoxification diet that may interest you.<br />
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p.s.: trying to get rid of my muffin top...argghhh! but i heard about the afterburn excises that should help...Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-82792428919316588082012-01-15T02:39:00.000-08:002012-01-15T02:39:18.825-08:00Merlinthose who love Merlin please raise your leg...or maybe you love Arthur... huhu... :3<br />
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i was really addicted to Merlin and i managed to finish watching all the season 4 episodes online last week thanks to good internet connection... no thanks to famous ''repeat-the-same-thing-again-and-again-service'' because it had made me watching the same episode for many time...<br />
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so if you want to watch Merlin online you can go to this page because it is really helpful.<br />
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another interesting thing is that you can also find other TV series online streaming links in this page...<br />
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Do enjoy watching Merlin online ^^,<br />
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p.s. : think of watching Charmed but i forget which series that i have watched...not to mention with my concern to AE...huhuhu...Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-52796253276673458392012-01-14T07:47:00.000-08:002012-01-14T07:47:51.541-08:00Animal Adoptionif you love pets then this is for you. <3<div><br />
</div><div>ever think of buying a pet straight from the pet shop but cannot effort it because of the amazing price? huhu...yes pets can be quite expensive especially if it is from a rare bred...but there is a way, where you can have the pet with less expensive price... but of course just like any other pet what is more important is not how much money do you spend for the pet, but the LOVE that you share with it with sincere heart. <3</div><div>so, i stumbled upon this page named PETFINDER (<a href="http://www.petfinder.my/linktous.htm">http://www.petfinder.my/linktous.htm</a>) where pets owners or breeders advertise their pets for sale and for adoption. most of the owners in this page do offer adoption for free as long as you love and care for that pet... well, what are you waiting for?</div><div><br />
</div><div>p.s.: i wish to have whether a spyhnx, a siamese, a blue russian, or a scottish fold....hmmm or better all them! i'm a cat person and honestly i do see that all cats are adorable and cute!!! meow :3 </div>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-66920153274938067012011-09-21T18:41:00.000-07:002011-09-21T18:41:46.453-07:00Busy-Lazy....It has been too long since i updated my blog...huuuu...not a very good blogger myself (sorry). however i will try my best to get my **s back in this blog bcause i really miss my little black box.... :3Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-27813231620010264232010-04-01T03:34:00.000-07:002010-04-01T03:40:18.360-07:00OF LUCK AND BAD LUCK<div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">Luck, yesterday</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
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</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpFirst" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;">-<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> 1. </span><span dir="LTR"></span>Been hit by a car…(which was totally the car driver’s fault!!!) Nas and I was on my motorcycle otw to the fac- have Mandarin oral test today</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;">-<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> 2. </span><span dir="LTR"></span>The most f******iest thing is that the driver couldn’t care less to stop and just ran away like nothing happened!!! I curse the day the driver was born!!(taken from sex and the city)</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;">-<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> 3. </span><span dir="LTR"></span>Scraped our knees and elbow…</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;">-<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> 4. </span><span dir="LTR"></span>Otw back to hostel, another stupid car driver ran into a water puddle and made a big splash which hit us. ‘THANKS’ for making us wet!!</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;">-<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> 5. </span><span dir="LTR"></span>My fav jeans- torn!</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;">-<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> 6. </span><span dir="LTR"></span>My fav cardigan- torn!</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;">-<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> 7. </span><span dir="LTR"></span>My motorcycle- damaged!</div><div class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;"><br />
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yeah, iguanas + other kind of lizards, spiders(OMG!!! <span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: line-through;">aracnidphobic</span>), a little squirel(<span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: line-through;">i think...=p forgot to ask</span>), a wild cat (not HSM's WIld Cats) and snakes...<br />
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1. got to pet a huge iguana...about the size of my thigh (actually, bigger!!) felt like plastic toy...haha...<br />
2. braced myself to go into the spiders show room...opend the door, took a few step,<span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: line-through;"> turn back and close the door...again,</span> went inside, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: line-through;">walked far from the spider</span>s, look at them a bit, have funny feeling all over my body, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: line-through;">total shock when i saw a spider crawling on their hand...waaargh!.</span>.<br />
3. saw the pythons, wanted to take picture(with them on me) hehe...<br />
4. asked nas to accompany me n take my picture...<br />
5. choose an albino python (dont know why the person incharge seem shock when i said i want the albino python...???<br />
6. nervous.(<span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: line-through;">i may die-like in anoconda movie lol</span>)...but then the python seem soooooooooOOOOOOooo CUTE!!!<br />
7. love the feeling of being wraped by the python (somehow i feel more secure...??)<br />
8. took pictures. they took the python... =(<br />
9. "Bro, gimme back 'my' albino python!!"(i said inside)<br />
10. decided to have a pet snake later...(n still deciding bcause thinking of my future pet cats..lol)<br />
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btw: it was so hot!!the reptiles need to be sprayed with water and ice...n my hair felt like being put into an oven lol...<br />
n i look messy n comot...=(Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-47741265624171519952010-03-07T06:26:00.003-08:002012-01-15T02:13:12.853-08:00Burden<div class="MsoNormal">I smile when I want to,</div><div class="MsoNormal">And I do smile when you want to.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I cry when I want to</div><div class="MsoNormal">And I do cry when you want to.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I mad when I want to</div><div class="MsoNormal">And I do mad when you want to.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">But when I feel like crying</div><div class="MsoNormal">when you want me to smile,</div><div class="MsoNormal">then I will smile like nothing worth of crying.</div><div class="MsoNormal">So what I will do when you want me to,</div><div class="MsoNormal">Even my heart aches,</div><div class="MsoNormal">Breaks,</div><div class="MsoNormal">Bla, bla, bla… </div><div class="MsoNormal">When some things are for yourself but not others to have,</div><div class="MsoNormal">A burden that you carry, of only you would understand.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">~Calmal Adam~</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
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</div>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-46984476207863006052010-03-07T06:24:00.001-08:002012-01-15T02:15:25.254-08:00the world is not perfect<div class="MsoNormal">The world is not perfect,</div><div class="MsoNormal">The sun burns</div><div class="MsoNormal">And rain floods.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">The world is not perfect,</div><div class="MsoNormal">The earth quakes,</div><div class="MsoNormal">And ocean flood.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">The world is not perfect,</div><div class="MsoNormal">So are you </div><div class="MsoNormal">And so does me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">The world is not perfect,</div><div class="MsoNormal">And so does this poem.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">~Calmal Adam~</div>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-31092621983941579822010-03-01T06:09:00.000-08:002012-01-15T02:15:52.313-08:00REALIZATION<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkHdZnMrn2F9bbSIQBXKfoS-TmRoqvlt7WE6QTPeM8BQLWBEqEFCgJCOzmeGb9wXokcG5xWnA3r9Bu_iOl839luf3Z6HKn-ShZVLqlGQp0fZ3HcJ-RaQSYWdGQ8FRk0YkWAwk6s26ZqUg3/s1600-h/07-09-09_1530.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5443679073224109970" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkHdZnMrn2F9bbSIQBXKfoS-TmRoqvlt7WE6QTPeM8BQLWBEqEFCgJCOzmeGb9wXokcG5xWnA3r9Bu_iOl839luf3Z6HKn-ShZVLqlGQp0fZ3HcJ-RaQSYWdGQ8FRk0YkWAwk6s26ZqUg3/s320/07-09-09_1530.jpg" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 320px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 240px;" /></a><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i see<br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">that you have more time for yourself</div><div class="MsoNormal">more time, more time.</div><div class="MsoNormal">but deep down i feel that you don’t like it,</div><div class="MsoNormal">as you keep making yourself busy,</div><div class="MsoNormal">just like a poem i have once read.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i see</div><div class="MsoNormal">that you have more time for yourself</div><div class="MsoNormal">more time for family</div><div class="MsoNormal">but somehow i feel far</div><div class="MsoNormal">which i don’t like</div><div class="MsoNormal">just like tar</div><div class="MsoNormal">it stains.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i see </div><div class="MsoNormal">that you finally realize</div><div class="MsoNormal">of what become of me</div><div class="MsoNormal">not like what you ever want</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i see</div><div class="MsoNormal">that you finally realize</div><div class="MsoNormal">that i'm not like what u thought</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i feel</div><div class="MsoNormal">the looks from your eyes,</div><div class="MsoNormal">of how they see</div><div class="MsoNormal">i feel vulnerable.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i feel</div><div class="MsoNormal">guilty of what i am</div><div class="MsoNormal">not being what you want</div><div class="MsoNormal">i’m sorry of what i done.</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i feel </div><div class="MsoNormal">guilty of what i done</div><div class="MsoNormal">not being a man like you want.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i even wish</div><div class="MsoNormal">wish for a miracle</div><div class="MsoNormal">as when i wake up from sleep</div><div class="MsoNormal">and be of what i should</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-GB">in</span><span lang="EN-GB"> </span>your dream.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i even wish </div><div class="MsoNormal">wish for a wish </div><div class="MsoNormal">so I can wish</div><div class="MsoNormal">to be what you wish.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i am sorry</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i’m sorry</div><div class="MsoNormal">of not being……</div><div class="MsoNormal">now i feel</div><div class="MsoNormal">like tornado twirling</div><div class="MsoNormal">confuse</div><div class="MsoNormal">angry</div><div class="MsoNormal">sad</div><div class="MsoNormal">etc…etc…</div><div class="MsoNormal">it is complicated</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">now the only word i can say</div><div class="MsoNormal">only sorry i can say</div><div class="MsoNormal">sorry, sorry, sorry…</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> ~calmal adam~</o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-45409469303472667842010-02-27T07:08:00.001-08:002010-02-27T09:17:37.804-08:00bLueBeary, DeviL and BaG…<p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Oh no, bluebeary has turned evil!!!</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">call him bluebeary the Devil..hehe...</p><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5MHV6TG97r7uZM67HIlcypf7c56zD8tmg224F3nhth3a3prutquz831hrq22i3QPskr40syoQcdDiohLQ_ipiJEtjtRHuubeDLvlraXzJCn_lWwcBRRzZOmHNmsLP42WozjO0OHlCBzrQ/s320/02-01-05_1451.jpg" style="text-align: justify;display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px; " border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5442943457568480706" /><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">(sat.27 Feb 10)</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">well, tonight was quite a hot night at icity. lots and lots of peeeooOOplee... actually, the head gear with the little pair of horns 'tickled' my interest..hehe...so i bought it for RM5, eventhough after that my friends bought the same headgear for RM4...but whatever....=p</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">all eyes were on me...haha... not really lol...too many people and i became a bit anxious... but again i try to walk and blend (even though i wore a glowing devil horns -most of them wore it, some wore mickey's glowing ears- and walked like i was on a runway). i think i did (did i??). </p><p class="MsoNormal"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGdawiriQRamccsHpfL4KySnqN4gkFSsQsHJj0GmSfpNv0tUl6VB3emRJc63UiJvPP1yF7GIPtxnAeLdUw4IN_DOukyJJ1kElHk1r8kPKHK6yviABdWClQ0MfL7Gb2WpxRzvUmkGf53gH8/s320/02-01-05_1449.jpg" style="text-align: justify;display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px; " border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5442943459639212178" /></p><div style="text-align: justify;">yesterday, my friends and i went to KL. the objective of the trip was actually to find novels for our literature subject. Unfortunately we only found a novel with only 2 left and we bought it. one out of 2 novels that we want to buy. So i spend the rest of my budget to buy this bag!! i had dream of buying a new one since december last year...n finally, thank god! =D</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>and thank god that i was able to control myself from buying another shirtsssss...eventhough i almost bought one but i did not because of the size...hehehe... (mind-note: no more extra shopping!!).<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"> </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-9845998388894560282010-02-24T02:20:00.000-08:002010-02-24T02:23:37.537-08:00One Eye<div>one eye,</div><div>one of yours is blind,</div><div>the other covered by white,</div><div>you may even not see clearly,</div><div>but others are far more worse.</div><div><br /></div><div>walking slowly on dirty path,</div><div>your sight faded, as you gets old</div><div>your eyes get worstened,</div><div>and so are others heart and soul.</div><div><br /></div><div>one eye,</div><div>one like me pity you so much</div><div>but none i can do to ease</div><div>your poor heart... </div><div><br /></div><div>one eye,</div><div>if i can speak and </div><div>if i can understand you,</div><div>will it change</div><div>how others view?</div><div><br /></div><div>it's time for me to go</div><div>hard for me to forget</div><div>your sweet voice, that</div><div>made me walked so slow</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm sorry i cant do anything,</div><div>though i can see your heart is bleeding</div><div>will i ever see you again?</div><div>if i do, can i be a help? </div><div>or will others help you to gain,</div><div>a life far good from today?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>~calmal adam~</div><div>ps: i wrote this in 2009, as a dedication to One Eye...</div><div><br /></div>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-39906457228747741022010-02-24T02:11:00.000-08:002010-02-24T02:18:32.446-08:00poems...these are the poems that i wrote b4 i wrote 'blank'. <div><br /></div><div>___________</div><div><br /><div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">trust</span></div><div><br /></div><div>lost in a dark forest,</div><div>with a laughing map on my face,</div><div>and a cunning compass.</div><div>which should i trust to,</div><div>which should i trust to</div><div>..</div><div>dark forest,</div><div>a laughing owl,</div><div>a sneaky centipede,</div><div>which should i trust to,</div><div>which should i trust to</div><div><br /></div><div>dark forest,</div><div>seem that i am alone,</div><div>would u eat me alive,</div><div>or just let me live in lies</div><div><br /></div><div>dark forest,</div><div>when can i have hope?</div><div>when can i have trust?</div><div>when can i have love?</div><div><br /></div><div>~Calmal~ </div><div>____________</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">bleed</span></div><div><br /></div><div><div>yes i admit,</div><div>i am blue among these red roses.</div><div>should i bleed myself?</div><div>so i would be red like them...</div><div><br /></div><div>should i? or shouldn't i?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>~calmal~</div><div><br /></div><div>____________</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">freakshow </span></div><div><br /></div><div><div>LOOK at me,</div><div>ain't i'm a freak?</div><div>a freak in your dusty and muddy little brain!</div><div><br /></div><div>again it's for you and others to judge,</div><div>normal? abnormal? handicap? freak? bla bla bLA!</div><div><br /></div><div>do i have a choice?</div><div>or i just have to choose?</div><div>follow those,</div><div>and act just fool?</div><div><br /></div><div>i had enough,</div><div>had enough,</div><div>killing me would be mercy,</div><div>than to keep me in your tiny cage!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>~calmal~</div></div></div></div></div>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189477701513626834.post-73217814140317378512010-02-20T22:50:00.000-08:002010-02-20T22:56:43.769-08:00blank<p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: left;margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; line-height: normal; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px; ">blank</span><br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">with emptiness<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">makes soul confused<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">makes soul withered<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">blank<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">with emptiness<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">that so heavy <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">yet so empty<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">blank<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">with emptiness<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">of none could see<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">of none could touch<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">of none could smell<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">of none could feel<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span style="font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"">but only me...<o:p></o:p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt;line-height: normal;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace:none"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;">~calmal adam~</span></p>Calmal Adamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01816864525729942142noreply@blogger.com0