bLueBeary, DeviL and BaG…

Oh no, bluebeary has turned evil!!!

call him bluebeary the Devil..hehe...

(sat.27 Feb 10)

well, tonight was quite a hot night at icity. lots and lots of peeeooOOplee... actually, the head gear with the little pair of horns 'tickled' my interest..hehe...so i bought it for RM5, eventhough after that my friends bought the same headgear for RM4...but whatever....=p

all eyes were on me...haha... not really lol...too many people and i became a bit anxious... but again i try to walk and blend (even though i wore a glowing devil horns -most of them wore it, some wore mickey's glowing ears- and walked like i was on a runway). i think i did (did i??).

yesterday, my friends and i went to KL. the objective of the trip was actually to find novels for our literature subject. Unfortunately we only found a novel with only 2 left and we bought it. one out of 2 novels that we want to buy. So i spend the rest of my budget to buy this bag!! i had dream of buying a new one since december last year...n finally, thank god! =D

and thank god that i was able to control myself from buying another shirtsssss...eventhough i almost bought one but i did not because of the size...hehehe... (mind-note: no more extra shopping!!).

One Eye

one eye,

one of yours is blind,

the other covered by white,

you may even not see clearly,

but others are far more worse.

walking slowly on dirty path,

your sight faded, as you gets old

your eyes get worstened,

and so are others heart and soul.

one eye,

one like me pity you so much

but none i can do to ease

your poor heart... 

one eye,

if i can speak and 

if i can understand you,

will it change

how others view?

it's time for me to go

hard for me to forget

your sweet voice, that

made me walked so slow

i'm sorry i cant do anything,

though i can see your heart is bleeding

will i ever see you again?

if i do, can i be a help? 

or will others help you to gain,

a life far good from today?

~calmal adam~

ps: i wrote this in 2009, as a dedication to One Eye...

poems...

these are the poems that i wrote b4 i wrote 'blank'. 

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trust

lost in a dark forest,

with a laughing map on my face,

and a cunning compass.

which should i trust to,

which should i trust to

..

dark forest,

a laughing owl,

a sneaky centipede,

which should i trust to,

which should i trust to

dark forest,

seem that i am alone,

would u eat me alive,

or just let me live in lies

dark forest,

when can i have hope?

when can i have trust?

when can i have love?

~Calmal~ 

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bleed

yes i admit,

i am blue among these red roses.

should i bleed myself?

so i would be red like them...

should i? or shouldn't i?

~calmal~

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freakshow 

LOOK at me,

ain't i'm a freak?

a freak in your dusty and muddy little brain!

again it's for you and others to judge,

normal? abnormal? handicap? freak? bla bla bLA!

do i have a choice?

or i just have to choose?

follow those,

and act just fool?

i had enough,

had enough,

killing me would be mercy,

than to keep me in your tiny cage!

~calmal~

blank

blank

with emptiness

makes soul confused

makes soul withered

 

blank

with emptiness

that so heavy

yet so empty

 

blank

with emptiness

of none could see

of none could touch

of none could smell

of none could feel

but only me...

~calmal adam~